L.O.V.E is my word for this year.
Alot of people don't know, together with the ending of 2014, I also ended an almost 5 year relationship with my (ex)boyfriend. The event is still fresh. It's only been a few days since the closure. I should be angry, upset, frustrated, hurt, in pain or whatever it is you can badly describe the effect of a break up to someone.
But why is my word for this year....."LOVE"?
I will not be a hypocrite and tell you guys that "I am not hurting" or "I am ok" or that "I have already recovered and moved on". Of course I am HURTING. In my mind, I wish I could turn back time and undo whatever things I have done to hurt the one I love. But hey, we both have made our decision and I respect that. I just have to accept it one day at a time.
I saw the picture above on instagram and I realized that, even if it still hurts, and felt like love was taken away from me, it should not be a reason for me not to give love this year. Infact, its more than a reason for me to nurture it. For my friends. For my family. And of course for myself.
I was so focused on my (ex)boyfriend before that I have forgotten that I have a life outside our relationship. I ignored my friends because I gave much time on him. I loved him more than my family or even more than myself. I was so focused on him I didn't even see that we were both hurting each other.
I guess what I am trying to say is that, I am ready to give love to those people who are important to me. People who I neglected while I was in our relationship. I may not be ready to give love to someone special but I am willing to give love to those people I value in my life that love me back. And of course I am ready to love my self again. :)
After all the hurt, love is always there to consider....
What's your word this year? Let's focus on it and share it along the way....
Xoxo,
Ruby
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